Unraveling Deceptions - Chapter Five
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bitetoall136Title: Unraveling Deceptions
Chapter: 05/??
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bite_to_all136
Genre: AU, Action Adventure, Angst, Romance
Warnings: inappropriate language, slight mentions of blood and guns, hinted sexual situations
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Pairings/Characters: Aoi & ?, Kai & ?, Reita & Kai, Tora & Kai (Pairings to be revealed as fic goes on)
Summary: There was only one rule to follow and he had just broken it.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, only the mediocre story line.
Previous Chapter(s): (Prologue)(Chapter One)(Chapter Two)(Chapter Three)(Chapter Four)
Chapter Five
An upper cut punch to the jaw sent him flying backwards, the taste of iron filling his mouth before he could even fully fall to the floor. He hadn’t any time to brace himself, his entire body slamming down on the cushioned mats with a bone crunching impact. The time to take in one full breath wasn’t even given to him before he heard rapidly approaching steps, having just enough time to roll over onto his side, raising his arms above his head for protection before the next blow was delivered to his lower back, stealing his breath away.
“Come on, string bean.” Aoi growled, panting as he kicked Kai in the ribcage with the tip of his steal toed boots. “All that talk about being some killing machine and you can’t even get one hit out on me? Pathetic.”
Another kick was delivered, Kai feeling something crack and shrugging it off as best as he could. This wasn’t the first time he has broken a rib and he knew for sure it certainly wouldn’t be the last.
Taking as deep of a breath as possible, he kicked his legs out in front of him, wrapping them around the bends of Aoi’s legs and twisting, a victorious smirk crossing his lips when he heard his new partner grunt in surprise before his body weight became unbalanced and he plummeted to the floor.
Kai took the opportunity to push himself up of the floor with hurry, ignoring the pain radiating all throughout his torso and positioning his body into a fighting stance right away. His breaths were coming hard and jagged and he was covered head to toe in sweat, but this was the most awake, the most alive he’s felt since the incident.
Over powering Aoi, showing him he wasn’t as weak and defenseless as he constantly berated him to be. It made every cell in Kai’s body move at full speed, pumping him with a shot of adrenaline he had only ever felt while out on a mission.
Week after week of training with his new partner simply felt like a game of tag. One moment Aoi would be the victorious one, pinning Kai down and showing him his full strength in the form of precise punches, only for Kai to have him up against a wall the next instant, indeed proving to Aoi why his kill record was so high.
Because whereas Aoi just moved in for the kill, taking no time to calculate his moves and decide what would work best, Kai knew that it wasn’t the amount of strength you used in physical battle that mattered, but instead just where the attack landed. None of his attacks were ever random, always predetermined, and that’s why he was such an accomplished agent. Be that as it may, just as Tora and Ruki have told him before, Aoi was good, and sometimes it was simply impossible to avoid one of his hits no matter how much strategic thought Kai put into it.
Moving to stand above the other agent who still hadn’t found the energy to push himself off the ground, that knowing smirk remained on Kai’s lips as he began circling Aoi. “Who’s the pathetic one now, hmm?” he spit the wad of blood gathering in the swell of his cheek onto the floor, just barely missing Aoi’s face, “Letting such a string bean knock you down like that? You must be so-“
His breath was knocked out him once more, Aoi having lifted his leg with a growl and kicking Kai straight in the chest, sending him slamming into the double-sided looking glass.
Tora, Ruki, and other agents, guards, and techies Kai really didn’t care about stood on the other side, watching their brawl in the padded room; Tora there to observe, to see if their combat skills were on par with one another’s. Ruki there to worry, to rush in as soon as this training session was over and help Kai back to their room, the guards there to pull them apart just in case things got too out of hand, and the rest there for pure entertainment purposes alone.
Aoi approached Kai, his fists wrapping in the chest of his shirt and sliding him up the glass, one of Aoi’s strong hands wrapping around his neck and holding him in place, staring up at him with pure hatred. “You’ve really gotta learn to stop talking shit-”
Kai kicked his legs, trying to squirm out of the hold, feeling his face fade of all color the longer Aoi withheld from him his ability to breathe. He felt those fingers tighten around his neck, his adrenaline rush from earlier now gone, pure panic setting in.
“You’re never going to be better than me, I’m a real agent. But you? You’re just…pathetic.” Aoi’s fingers tightened with each word, Kai feeling his nails dig into his jugular, pinching.
Everything was dizzying. He could feel himself fighting to breathe, struggling with everything he had. But no matter how much he squirmed around, Aoi wasn’t relenting, raising him higher and higher on the glass and increasing the pressure. Blackness was beginning to surround him, frail images of guns firing, of Reita pleading with him to leave, of the skull splitting ache he felt sorrowing through him-
“Agent Shiroyama, that’s enough.”
Tora’s booming voice brought Kai back to reality for all of about two seconds, his heavy lidded eyes spotting the tall man, able to see his face scrunched up into disdain and anger, yet still appearing as calm as ever. However, Aoi didn’t listen, his hand now at crushing levels. Kai let out a painful groan, his wind pipe feeling shattered.
“Guards, take him down.”
The stomping of feet on the ground, Aoi laughing at the men running into the room with their guns pointed at him. It had become a routine over the past four weeks, though this was the furthest Aoi’s ever taken it. The furthest he has ever tested Tora’s patience and Kai’s ability to survive.
Aoi muttered off snarky remarks that Kai could only hear partially, his consciousness beginning to fade and everything coming into view in scattered pieces. Aoi laughing at the guards, the clicking of guns, orders being yelled left and right. And then, finally, the distinct sound of the butt of a pistol be rammed into a temple.
Kai slid down the wall as Aoi’s deadening grip was abruptly no more; colliding with the ground beneath him harshly, eyes wide and chest heaving fast as he gasped frantically for air.
His entire body was trembling and everything was still coming in bits of scattered pieces. He continued to try and control his breathing, the air feeling cold and sharp as he inhaled; the combination of his cracked ribs and trying to take in all he could in such a short period of time making every ache and pain all the more notable.
Blinking, he sluggishly opened his eyes, seeing Aoi with a bloodied temple and being carted off by guards. He blinked again, rolling over onto his side and groaning, hearing Tora calmly instruct somebody to go grab a medic.
He felt like a fish under water whose gills had just been removed. Squirming, trying his hardest to reach the surface, only to be held down by the current, the little bit of breath he’d been able to attain being swept away from him due to crashing waves. Realizing he was drowning, his over wrought anxiety kicked in, his heart now beating at dangerously rapid levels.
Trying to think of anything and everything to calm down, his breathing only dropped back down to what would be considered normal when he felt a warm, familiar touch to his heated shoulder. And when he looked up, he couldn’t help but allow his lips to quirk up at the corners a bit. Because before him was a strong man. His hair wild and blond, spiked in all different directions. A smile that could be described only as boyish spread across smooth, thin lips. It was a smile and touch he hadn’t seen in months, and more than anything, he wanted to reach up and graze his fingers across those lips, verifying that they were real.
That Reita was actually here.
A large gulp of breath, another blink of the eyes, and he was brought back to reality once more.
The man before him morphed, blond hair now black, lips fuller and not as smooth – a scar decorating the left corner. Regardless, the touch was still warm and comforting, calming Kai to the point of normality.
Tora squeezed his shoulder lightly, nodding his head. “You did well today, Agent Uke. A medic will be here soon to look you over. Just stay put, understand?”
Kai nodded, dark eyes staring at Tora. He was coherent enough now to understand everything his boss was saying. He remained his usual tranquil self in his speech, but the deeper Kai looked into his eyes, the more he could see he was bristling with anger, his entire body wrought with tension.
And this wasn’t the first time he appeared as so. The past month, any time Aoi went overboard in training, any time he touched or injured Kai in any way, shape, or form, Tora would attain this venomous aura to him. Kai could never work up the courage to question Tora why, fearing the answer to be one that would only complicate matters further.
Closing his eyes again, forcing himself to relax. He listened to all the movement around him, felt somebody kneel down beside him and begin poking and prodding at his body moments later. Fingers smoothed down his neck and sides, Kai biting his lip to hold back a hiss. Everything hurt more than he could describe, but it wasn’t the physical ache that was making him suffer. The medic’s touches were gentle, and with his eyes still closed, Kai’s thoughts immediately traveled back to his earlier visions.
No matter how hard he tried to push them back, all he could think about was Reita and how dearly he missed him. About how much he needed to see him.
“S…stop…” He began sitting up, one arm wrapped around his torso and the other pushing the medic away.
“Agent Uke, I need to-”
“I’ve been shot, I’ve been stabbed, I’ve been beaten to a pulp. This is nothing, I’m fine. Just – I need to go.”
Without another word Kai stood, keeping his arms folded around himself and ignoring Tora and Ruki’s protests of telling him that he needed to get checked out. Because Kai didn’t care about a few fractured ribs or a few rough bruises around his neck. All he cared about was hobbling through the hallway and making it to the med wing. All he cared about was making it to room 518. All he cared about was seeing Reita’s face.
He ignored the pain, he ignored the both concerned and disgusted looks he received along the way. Because right now there was only one goal at the forefront of his mind.
When he finally reached Reita’s room, Kai didn’t waste any time in sitting down on the stool at the side of Reita’s bed. He bit back groan as pain radiated from his temples to his toes, and he simply laced his fingers together with Reita’s, squeezing tight.
“…Please, Rei…please just wake up already. I need you here…”
Foreboding silence was all he was met with.
“Please, Rei…just give me a sign, any sign at all. I just need to know you’re here, I just...I need to know I’m not alone…that you’ll be here for me when I get back…”
Lifting his hand, he caressed Reita’s cheek, his knuckles flowing gently over scratchy stubble. “…today was the last day of training and Shiroyama didn’t kill me, you know what that means, don’t you?” Kai’s voice cracked, sheer desperation lacing every syllable as he continued to memorize every inch of his now former partner’s face.
“It means tomorrow night, Shiroyama and I are getting sent on our trial mission. It’s going to be my first mission without you in four years, Rei, and I’m not going to lie…I’m fucking scared shitless.” Sniffling, Kai used their connected hands to wipe away a lone tear beginning to trail down his cheek, “So please, Rei…just wake up. You’re the only one who’s ever been able to assure me, and now more than ever, I fucking need it…”
Blinking away tears he felt building once again, Kai stared blankly at the blond beside him. He simply looked at if he were sleeping. Kai felt all he needed to do was stand up and scream, pound on Reita’s chest and tell him to wake the fuck up, that his break was over. That it was time to get back to work, that it was time to get back to them.
But Kai knew that even if he were to try doing just that, it would all prove to be useless. He could pound and pound away at Reita’s chest, he could scream at the top of his lungs, but nothing would tear Reita from what seemed to be his forever peaceful sleep. After all these months of not hearing his voice, of not feeling his warmth, of just…nothingness, Kai’s finally starting to realize that, although still here, Reita was just as gone as the men and women they’ve put down together over the years.
But still, he waited. Ten minutes, half an hour, an hour and then an hour more. Only to again be met with deadening silence; absolutely no reaction.
It took almost everything in Kai to stand from the stool and let go of Reita’s hand, but what truly tore him apart was leaning over his former partner’s bed side and giving him one last final kiss, whispering, “Good bye…” before sluggishly limping back to his room and collapsing into his bed, using the last of his energy to dig through his side table drawer and pulling out the one purchase he’d asked Tora to bring back for him almost a month ago.
A bottle of whisky, tall and sleek and nearing empty. And when Kai unscrewed the top and drank the last drops, his mind filled with nothing but fond memories, allowing a smile to cross his beaten face.
And with his return to active filed duty looming not even twenty-four hours away, it was in this moment that Kai knew the smile he was currently sporting could be the last one he wears for the longest of days – maybe even the rest of eternity.
(Next Chapter)
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Author's Note: Heeeeey you guys :p I don't even know what to say, inspiration hit me out of nowhere and I kind of typed this up in like an hour or two? I hope some of you guys still remember and enjoy this story and umm...that's really it! These chapters are short, so things are going to unwrap slooowly...so sorry if it's not all too exciting yet, I promise it'll get better....hopefully :P
Oh, and I'd like to dedicate this chapter tosarky_chepooka because she sent me and message that somehow awoken my dead brain, so thank you deary! You're the best <33
Chapter: 05/??
Author:
bite_to_all136Genre: AU, Action Adventure, Angst, Romance
Warnings: inappropriate language, slight mentions of blood and guns, hinted sexual situations
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Pairings/Characters: Aoi & ?, Kai & ?, Reita & Kai, Tora & Kai (Pairings to be revealed as fic goes on)
Summary: There was only one rule to follow and he had just broken it.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, only the mediocre story line.
Previous Chapter(s): (Prologue)(Chapter One)(Chapter Two)(Chapter Three)(Chapter Four)
An upper cut punch to the jaw sent him flying backwards, the taste of iron filling his mouth before he could even fully fall to the floor. He hadn’t any time to brace himself, his entire body slamming down on the cushioned mats with a bone crunching impact. The time to take in one full breath wasn’t even given to him before he heard rapidly approaching steps, having just enough time to roll over onto his side, raising his arms above his head for protection before the next blow was delivered to his lower back, stealing his breath away.
“Come on, string bean.” Aoi growled, panting as he kicked Kai in the ribcage with the tip of his steal toed boots. “All that talk about being some killing machine and you can’t even get one hit out on me? Pathetic.”
Another kick was delivered, Kai feeling something crack and shrugging it off as best as he could. This wasn’t the first time he has broken a rib and he knew for sure it certainly wouldn’t be the last.
Taking as deep of a breath as possible, he kicked his legs out in front of him, wrapping them around the bends of Aoi’s legs and twisting, a victorious smirk crossing his lips when he heard his new partner grunt in surprise before his body weight became unbalanced and he plummeted to the floor.
Kai took the opportunity to push himself up of the floor with hurry, ignoring the pain radiating all throughout his torso and positioning his body into a fighting stance right away. His breaths were coming hard and jagged and he was covered head to toe in sweat, but this was the most awake, the most alive he’s felt since the incident.
Over powering Aoi, showing him he wasn’t as weak and defenseless as he constantly berated him to be. It made every cell in Kai’s body move at full speed, pumping him with a shot of adrenaline he had only ever felt while out on a mission.
Week after week of training with his new partner simply felt like a game of tag. One moment Aoi would be the victorious one, pinning Kai down and showing him his full strength in the form of precise punches, only for Kai to have him up against a wall the next instant, indeed proving to Aoi why his kill record was so high.
Because whereas Aoi just moved in for the kill, taking no time to calculate his moves and decide what would work best, Kai knew that it wasn’t the amount of strength you used in physical battle that mattered, but instead just where the attack landed. None of his attacks were ever random, always predetermined, and that’s why he was such an accomplished agent. Be that as it may, just as Tora and Ruki have told him before, Aoi was good, and sometimes it was simply impossible to avoid one of his hits no matter how much strategic thought Kai put into it.
Moving to stand above the other agent who still hadn’t found the energy to push himself off the ground, that knowing smirk remained on Kai’s lips as he began circling Aoi. “Who’s the pathetic one now, hmm?” he spit the wad of blood gathering in the swell of his cheek onto the floor, just barely missing Aoi’s face, “Letting such a string bean knock you down like that? You must be so-“
His breath was knocked out him once more, Aoi having lifted his leg with a growl and kicking Kai straight in the chest, sending him slamming into the double-sided looking glass.
Tora, Ruki, and other agents, guards, and techies Kai really didn’t care about stood on the other side, watching their brawl in the padded room; Tora there to observe, to see if their combat skills were on par with one another’s. Ruki there to worry, to rush in as soon as this training session was over and help Kai back to their room, the guards there to pull them apart just in case things got too out of hand, and the rest there for pure entertainment purposes alone.
Aoi approached Kai, his fists wrapping in the chest of his shirt and sliding him up the glass, one of Aoi’s strong hands wrapping around his neck and holding him in place, staring up at him with pure hatred. “You’ve really gotta learn to stop talking shit-”
Kai kicked his legs, trying to squirm out of the hold, feeling his face fade of all color the longer Aoi withheld from him his ability to breathe. He felt those fingers tighten around his neck, his adrenaline rush from earlier now gone, pure panic setting in.
“You’re never going to be better than me, I’m a real agent. But you? You’re just…pathetic.” Aoi’s fingers tightened with each word, Kai feeling his nails dig into his jugular, pinching.
Everything was dizzying. He could feel himself fighting to breathe, struggling with everything he had. But no matter how much he squirmed around, Aoi wasn’t relenting, raising him higher and higher on the glass and increasing the pressure. Blackness was beginning to surround him, frail images of guns firing, of Reita pleading with him to leave, of the skull splitting ache he felt sorrowing through him-
“Agent Shiroyama, that’s enough.”
Tora’s booming voice brought Kai back to reality for all of about two seconds, his heavy lidded eyes spotting the tall man, able to see his face scrunched up into disdain and anger, yet still appearing as calm as ever. However, Aoi didn’t listen, his hand now at crushing levels. Kai let out a painful groan, his wind pipe feeling shattered.
“Guards, take him down.”
The stomping of feet on the ground, Aoi laughing at the men running into the room with their guns pointed at him. It had become a routine over the past four weeks, though this was the furthest Aoi’s ever taken it. The furthest he has ever tested Tora’s patience and Kai’s ability to survive.
Aoi muttered off snarky remarks that Kai could only hear partially, his consciousness beginning to fade and everything coming into view in scattered pieces. Aoi laughing at the guards, the clicking of guns, orders being yelled left and right. And then, finally, the distinct sound of the butt of a pistol be rammed into a temple.
Kai slid down the wall as Aoi’s deadening grip was abruptly no more; colliding with the ground beneath him harshly, eyes wide and chest heaving fast as he gasped frantically for air.
His entire body was trembling and everything was still coming in bits of scattered pieces. He continued to try and control his breathing, the air feeling cold and sharp as he inhaled; the combination of his cracked ribs and trying to take in all he could in such a short period of time making every ache and pain all the more notable.
Blinking, he sluggishly opened his eyes, seeing Aoi with a bloodied temple and being carted off by guards. He blinked again, rolling over onto his side and groaning, hearing Tora calmly instruct somebody to go grab a medic.
He felt like a fish under water whose gills had just been removed. Squirming, trying his hardest to reach the surface, only to be held down by the current, the little bit of breath he’d been able to attain being swept away from him due to crashing waves. Realizing he was drowning, his over wrought anxiety kicked in, his heart now beating at dangerously rapid levels.
Trying to think of anything and everything to calm down, his breathing only dropped back down to what would be considered normal when he felt a warm, familiar touch to his heated shoulder. And when he looked up, he couldn’t help but allow his lips to quirk up at the corners a bit. Because before him was a strong man. His hair wild and blond, spiked in all different directions. A smile that could be described only as boyish spread across smooth, thin lips. It was a smile and touch he hadn’t seen in months, and more than anything, he wanted to reach up and graze his fingers across those lips, verifying that they were real.
That Reita was actually here.
A large gulp of breath, another blink of the eyes, and he was brought back to reality once more.
The man before him morphed, blond hair now black, lips fuller and not as smooth – a scar decorating the left corner. Regardless, the touch was still warm and comforting, calming Kai to the point of normality.
Tora squeezed his shoulder lightly, nodding his head. “You did well today, Agent Uke. A medic will be here soon to look you over. Just stay put, understand?”
Kai nodded, dark eyes staring at Tora. He was coherent enough now to understand everything his boss was saying. He remained his usual tranquil self in his speech, but the deeper Kai looked into his eyes, the more he could see he was bristling with anger, his entire body wrought with tension.
And this wasn’t the first time he appeared as so. The past month, any time Aoi went overboard in training, any time he touched or injured Kai in any way, shape, or form, Tora would attain this venomous aura to him. Kai could never work up the courage to question Tora why, fearing the answer to be one that would only complicate matters further.
Closing his eyes again, forcing himself to relax. He listened to all the movement around him, felt somebody kneel down beside him and begin poking and prodding at his body moments later. Fingers smoothed down his neck and sides, Kai biting his lip to hold back a hiss. Everything hurt more than he could describe, but it wasn’t the physical ache that was making him suffer. The medic’s touches were gentle, and with his eyes still closed, Kai’s thoughts immediately traveled back to his earlier visions.
No matter how hard he tried to push them back, all he could think about was Reita and how dearly he missed him. About how much he needed to see him.
“S…stop…” He began sitting up, one arm wrapped around his torso and the other pushing the medic away.
“Agent Uke, I need to-”
“I’ve been shot, I’ve been stabbed, I’ve been beaten to a pulp. This is nothing, I’m fine. Just – I need to go.”
Without another word Kai stood, keeping his arms folded around himself and ignoring Tora and Ruki’s protests of telling him that he needed to get checked out. Because Kai didn’t care about a few fractured ribs or a few rough bruises around his neck. All he cared about was hobbling through the hallway and making it to the med wing. All he cared about was making it to room 518. All he cared about was seeing Reita’s face.
He ignored the pain, he ignored the both concerned and disgusted looks he received along the way. Because right now there was only one goal at the forefront of his mind.
When he finally reached Reita’s room, Kai didn’t waste any time in sitting down on the stool at the side of Reita’s bed. He bit back groan as pain radiated from his temples to his toes, and he simply laced his fingers together with Reita’s, squeezing tight.
“…Please, Rei…please just wake up already. I need you here…”
Foreboding silence was all he was met with.
“Please, Rei…just give me a sign, any sign at all. I just need to know you’re here, I just...I need to know I’m not alone…that you’ll be here for me when I get back…”
Lifting his hand, he caressed Reita’s cheek, his knuckles flowing gently over scratchy stubble. “…today was the last day of training and Shiroyama didn’t kill me, you know what that means, don’t you?” Kai’s voice cracked, sheer desperation lacing every syllable as he continued to memorize every inch of his now former partner’s face.
“It means tomorrow night, Shiroyama and I are getting sent on our trial mission. It’s going to be my first mission without you in four years, Rei, and I’m not going to lie…I’m fucking scared shitless.” Sniffling, Kai used their connected hands to wipe away a lone tear beginning to trail down his cheek, “So please, Rei…just wake up. You’re the only one who’s ever been able to assure me, and now more than ever, I fucking need it…”
Blinking away tears he felt building once again, Kai stared blankly at the blond beside him. He simply looked at if he were sleeping. Kai felt all he needed to do was stand up and scream, pound on Reita’s chest and tell him to wake the fuck up, that his break was over. That it was time to get back to work, that it was time to get back to them.
But Kai knew that even if he were to try doing just that, it would all prove to be useless. He could pound and pound away at Reita’s chest, he could scream at the top of his lungs, but nothing would tear Reita from what seemed to be his forever peaceful sleep. After all these months of not hearing his voice, of not feeling his warmth, of just…nothingness, Kai’s finally starting to realize that, although still here, Reita was just as gone as the men and women they’ve put down together over the years.
But still, he waited. Ten minutes, half an hour, an hour and then an hour more. Only to again be met with deadening silence; absolutely no reaction.
It took almost everything in Kai to stand from the stool and let go of Reita’s hand, but what truly tore him apart was leaning over his former partner’s bed side and giving him one last final kiss, whispering, “Good bye…” before sluggishly limping back to his room and collapsing into his bed, using the last of his energy to dig through his side table drawer and pulling out the one purchase he’d asked Tora to bring back for him almost a month ago.
A bottle of whisky, tall and sleek and nearing empty. And when Kai unscrewed the top and drank the last drops, his mind filled with nothing but fond memories, allowing a smile to cross his beaten face.
And with his return to active filed duty looming not even twenty-four hours away, it was in this moment that Kai knew the smile he was currently sporting could be the last one he wears for the longest of days – maybe even the rest of eternity.
(Next Chapter)
Author's Note: Heeeeey you guys :p I don't even know what to say, inspiration hit me out of nowhere and I kind of typed this up in like an hour or two? I hope some of you guys still remember and enjoy this story and umm...that's really it! These chapters are short, so things are going to unwrap slooowly...so sorry if it's not all too exciting yet, I promise it'll get better....hopefully :P
Oh, and I'd like to dedicate this chapter to
sarky_chepooka because she sent me and message that somehow awoken my dead brain, so thank you deary! You're the best <33
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Date: 2015-04-30 10:33 pm (UTC)Even though this chapter ripped my heart out of my chest and stomped on it a few times ;____; That's fine, I love it when it hurts ;D
At the beginning, I was all like, Aoi, what the hell? You dick! And then, yeah okay, he's supposed to do that. xD Poor Kai though...Is Aoi really that good? Or is Kai just so emotionally drained he can't focus on anything.
And Tora's anger...hmm let me think. DOES HE LOVE KAI?! Of course he does, who the hell wouldn't? Oh that's right, Aoi. <---- I feel like I have said this before?! Lol. I can't hate Aoi though, I have to say he is a little bit of a badass, even if he is cocky.
Then that scene where Kai thinks he sees Reita, omg, heart breaking more. Thank you.
THEN you have to make him go and see Reita, and see how he is just there and literally probably never ever ever coming back. ;____; Poor Kai, seriously. I really like the part where you had him wanting to pound on Reita's chest and scream, wake the fuck up! It gave me a nice mental image and made me want to cry.
That ending, someone better make Kai smile again! Kai not smiling....unacceptable.
I am all down for a slow build, I fucking love this fic, and I can't wait for it. AND I'M SO HAPPY!!!! When I saw you updated, I squealed. For reals. I hope you keep getting bursts of inspiration because the world needs more of your fics and awesome writing!
So thank you!!!!!! <3333333333333
p.s. had to use Kai smiling icon to render my heartache. xP
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Date: 2015-05-01 08:18 pm (UTC)Glad to hear you love it when it hurts, bc I guarantee you, this fic will probably have lots of hurt to go around for every character :'D
Hmm, maybe it's a little bit of both?? We'll just have to wait and see~ :P
Tora love Kai? Whaaat? What're you talking about, that's not possible :'D It's sooo unlike me to try and add drama to fics, jeez :P Aoi is an asshole - reason why he's my faaav character to write lol.
Aww, well thank you! It's nice to know someone appreciated my somewhat come back :p I just hope this writing streak sticks with me for a while this time, bc I'd reaaally love to get into this story some more bc really, if this were an actual novel...this would still be like...chapter one lol.
It's me who should be thanking you, though! <33
Lol, guess I'll just have to use my BA Kai icon so I can compete against your cute one :P
p.s. I *JUST* SAW YOU UPDATED THE STOLEN VOICE AND I NEED TO GET ON THAT ASAP OMG SOSOSO EXCITED! WILL BE READING TONIGHT FOR SURE! :DDD
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Date: 2015-04-30 10:34 pm (UTC)But you got me crying when Kai said goodbye to Reita(-_-)
Can't wait to see how this going to develop <33
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Date: 2015-05-01 08:21 pm (UTC)Sorry ;____; It wasn't my intention at all to bring tears to anyone's eyes! *hands Kleenex* :P
I'll try and update soon! Have already started on the next chapter! <33
Thank you for commenting, it means a lot!
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Date: 2015-04-30 11:09 pm (UTC)Aoi is craaaaaaaaazy. Like at this point I don't even trust that he won't cause Kai any harm while they're away, or that he'll care if someone else does :/ Kinda... not the best situation for Kai to be in. Plus beating him to a pulp right as they're about to return to duty and they both need to be in good shape is just... ughhh >_> Poor Kai bby <3
When he went to Reita's room and begged him to wake up my heart seriously broke into a million little pieces ;__; I reeeeeally hope some miracle happens and he finally wakes up because this is just TOO SAD D:
And Tora is in looove. Interesting~. My guess is that's going to cause some drama down the line :3
I love this and think it's REALLY exciting, the fact that Kai is about to go away with someone who literally cannot stand him and that I have no idea whatsoever who Kai will end up with (if he even survives) has me on the edge of my seat!
YOU are the best! <333 Seriously thank you, you're too sweet!!! :'D
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Date: 2015-05-01 08:43 pm (UTC)Aoi's just trying to show everyone he's the top dog, no worries, he should't let too much damage come Kai's way :P Don't worry about Kai right now, he's a tough little cookie. One little fight shouldn't mess with his work all too much :3
Maybe I'll just make Reita stay in a coma forever and ever so donkey pairing can finally become legit :'D
At this point even I don't know who Kai will end up with, tbh. I mean, when I started this in my head, nothing was nearly as complex as it was going to be and now...holy shit, staring at my plotting sheet I'm just x___x I don't know how I'm going to make all this happen, but I'm determined to do so! lol.
Naaah, man...it's *you* who is the best! Seriously, I wouldn't have written forever more if it weren't for you, so really, all my loves and hugs are going your way rn <333
(and -___- replied back to your email....only to click the back space key and lose everything -___- I'M GONNA FORCE MYSELF TO GET BACK ON MY LAPTOP AND REPLY BACK TOMORROW THO! I miss talking to my fav Kai girl ;___;)
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Date: 2015-05-02 09:17 pm (UTC)That makes me feel slightly better haha :P STILL THOUGH! Aoi, there's no need to be such an asshole D: Especially not to my bby Kai ;____;
Ummmm yeah maybe don't do that unless you want to be responsible for breaking my heart completely. SERIOUSLY YOU CAN'T DO THAT D: As much as I love the donkey pairing he HAS to wake up bc otherwise I WILL FLOOD THE WORLD WITH MY TEARS. SO MUCH ANGST ;______;
Aww I'm sure you can do it, it'll be like working on a puzzle :P Because yeah, complex is a pretty accurate way to describe how this story is turning out xD But that's why it's so gooooood.
Lol I have no idea how me being like "R U alive????" could possible be a source of inspiration to you, but I'm super happy that it happened! :D Let's hope writers block stays faaaar away!
Awh I do that all the time too, it totally sucks >_<
Fav Kai girl <--- best title ever tbh, and right back at you!!
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Date: 2015-05-01 08:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-05-01 12:40 am (UTC)I THINK MY HEART JUST STOPPED WHEN I SAW YOU UPDATED
and now it is smashed into a billion teeny tinY LITTLE PIECES *Sobs* When Kai was pleading with Reita I hope you know I started crying I want Reita to wake up so fucking bad oommggggg My feels for this chapter were very strong ;A; (Also tbh I love the fight scene too aaahhhh I love when the Gazeboys get to beat the shit out of each other in stories huehuhuhuu I'm such a terrible person)
Ah... I'm so sad for poor Kai, you don't even know- Well I'm sure you do, since you're the one who's writing this hahaha XD But you know what I mean! ;P I just hope that everything turns out okay for him in the end, you can beat him up and angst him as much as you want (the more the merrier~ XP) as long as it ends happy lol ;u; (ANd with Reita awake and the ReiKai united hopefully?? *v* Ne ne??)
Anyways.... It's all lovely! I'm really glad you got your random inspiration hehe~ I really really love this emotionally damaged Kai, and this story in general, it's amazing and intriguing uwu Thank you so much for this update <3
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Date: 2015-05-01 08:31 pm (UTC)I can't say much, buuut...maybe Reita will wake up soon? Oooor....maybe he won't? We'll just have to wait and see~. But I can promise you some sweet Reikai in the future - maybe :P Yaaay someone likes my fight scenes :DD I'm always afraid I'm not adding enough to them bc I'm kind of a detail junkie...but then if I add too much it just gets confusing to follow and x___x
OH, trust me...Kai's going to get beat up LOTS :'D I love Kai so I must beat him to a pulp. Makes sense, right? :p
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment! I was seriously grinning like a fool reading your comment, so really, thanks! It means a lot <33
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Date: 2015-05-01 03:59 am (UTC)you comeback
wohoo!
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Date: 2015-05-02 07:27 am (UTC)(҂｀ﾛ´)凸 Tora
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Date: 2015-05-03 07:35 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for commenting <33