I don’t even know what to say. It’s been so long since I last commented on one of your fics (sorry._.) and this is so freaking gooooood that I just legit don’t know how to even begin expressing allllll the feels that are currently wrecking havoc on my entire being.
Guess I could start out by saying thanks a lot for shredding my heart completely. Do you even understand how heartbreaking this fic is????????????????????????????
FIRST OF ALL
Yutaka, my bby. Fuck you. Fuck you so fucking much I hate you omg.
My first thought was that I felt really bad for Yuu. But then Yutaka was THERE and I was like omg yes now we’ll get an explanation as to why he just suddenly left and everything will be fucking perfect yay.
But noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
No, Yutaka (that. bitch.) dances around Yuu’s questions as I begin to feel like strangling him just a little bit. Even after 10 years, he refuses to give Yuu some kind of closure. That is like the worst thing you can do to someone, because how is he supposed to get over something when he doesn’t even know what the hell happened? Then there’s THE RING and my brain nearly explodes !but! when he says that he “appreciates” his wife, I feel this sadistic satisfaction that Yuu isn’t the only one who’s been suffering.
AND THEN HE HAS A FUCKING KID AND MY BRAIN FINALLY DOES EXPLODE because it’s just SO unfair. It’s so goddamn unfair that while he might have missed Yuu, at least he’s been filling his life with other things while Yuu’s been in this permanent limbo of complete and utter misery
And
It
Isn’t
Fair.
I’m sure he did have a good reason for leaving, I’m assuming it has something to do with his family and how they would never be able to accept the relationship. I really hope you’ll continue this fic so we can find out~. But since the story was presented from Yuu’s perspective, while reading this I kind of felt like he was my friend and Yutaka was the fucker who hurt him and didn’t deserve even an ounce of happiness in his life.
ALSO I lovelovelove the way you described kind of the… evolution of the friendship between all of them, and how a lot of them lost contact because… that happens. It sucks and you wonder why all of you let that happen, but it’s part of reality and I always like to see that in fiction~.
So. Yo, this wasn’t too sucky :P It was SO GREAT, and (despite how much I’ve been ranting about Yutaka) I really loved reading this because it just made me feel so damn much. It’s taken me hours to read this because it was just too intense and I had to take breaks to calm down xD Which is a good thing imo!
You really had no reason to be worried about posting this. So it isn’t my favourite pairing, but did I care while reading this? Noooooooo because it’s beautifully written, and most importantly the characters and their emotions were described so well that the pairing just didn’t matter. And the smut… I don’t even understand how you can NOT see that that right there is an AMAZING smut scene. The emotions were practically tangible, and the similarities with their first time…. HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS IS PERFECT SMUT?????
Also (I’m sorry about my disjointed way of writing this, it’s even getting on my own nerves but) when Yutaka asked him if he trusted him and Yuu’s first thought was basically “lol no” I thought that was perfect because if that - and that fact that he lied and nodded - isn’t tragic, then I don’t know what is. Like Yuu wishes he could trust him, but he knows that nothing is really going to change, so in a way… Well in a way I guess he did get some semblance of closure because he at least knew what was going to happen this time, even if that didn’t make it any less painful.
The ending broke me, I wish I could enter the story and get on that bus with Yuu, and hold his hand and give him a pat on the back for at least trying to tell himself that he won’t see Yutaka anymore, because it would be too painful and just not enough.
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Date: 2014-07-19 02:03 am (UTC)Guess I could start out by saying thanks a lot for shredding my heart completely. Do you even understand how heartbreaking this fic is????????????????????????????
FIRST OF ALL
Yutaka, my bby. Fuck you. Fuck you so fucking much I hate you omg.
My first thought was that I felt really bad for Yuu. But then Yutaka was THERE and I was like omg yes now we’ll get an explanation as to why he just suddenly left and everything will be fucking perfect yay.
But noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
No, Yutaka (that. bitch.) dances around Yuu’s questions as I begin to feel like strangling him just a little bit. Even after 10 years, he refuses to give Yuu some kind of closure. That is like the worst thing you can do to someone, because how is he supposed to get over something when he doesn’t even know what the hell happened? Then there’s THE RING and my brain nearly explodes !but! when he says that he “appreciates” his wife, I feel this sadistic satisfaction that Yuu isn’t the only one who’s been suffering.
AND THEN HE HAS A FUCKING KID AND MY BRAIN FINALLY DOES EXPLODE because it’s just SO unfair. It’s so goddamn unfair that while he might have missed Yuu, at least he’s been filling his life with other things while Yuu’s been in this permanent limbo of complete and utter misery
And
It
Isn’t
Fair.
I’m sure he did have a good reason for leaving, I’m assuming it has something to do with his family and how they would never be able to accept the relationship. I really hope you’ll continue this fic so we can find out~. But since the story was presented from Yuu’s perspective, while reading this I kind of felt like he was my friend and Yutaka was the fucker who hurt him and didn’t deserve even an ounce of happiness in his life.
ALSO I lovelovelove the way you described kind of the… evolution of the friendship between all of them, and how a lot of them lost contact because… that happens. It sucks and you wonder why all of you let that happen, but it’s part of reality and I always like to see that in fiction~.
So. Yo, this wasn’t too sucky :P It was SO GREAT, and (despite how much I’ve been ranting about Yutaka) I really loved reading this because it just made me feel so damn much. It’s taken me hours to read this because it was just too intense and I had to take breaks to calm down xD Which is a good thing imo!
You really had no reason to be worried about posting this. So it isn’t my favourite pairing, but did I care while reading this? Noooooooo because it’s beautifully written, and most importantly the characters and their emotions were described so well that the pairing just didn’t matter. And the smut… I don’t even understand how you can NOT see that that right there is an AMAZING smut scene. The emotions were practically tangible, and the similarities with their first time…. HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS IS PERFECT SMUT?????
Also (I’m sorry about my disjointed way of writing this, it’s even getting on my own nerves but) when Yutaka asked him if he trusted him and Yuu’s first thought was basically “lol no” I thought that was perfect because if that - and that fact that he lied and nodded - isn’t tragic, then I don’t know what is. Like Yuu wishes he could trust him, but he knows that nothing is really going to change, so in a way… Well in a way I guess he did get some semblance of closure because he at least knew what was going to happen this time, even if that didn’t make it any less painful.
The ending broke me, I wish I could enter the story and get on that bus with Yuu, and hold his hand and give him a pat on the back for at least trying to tell himself that he won’t see Yutaka anymore, because it would be too painful and just not enough.